Smile, life is easy 1

Something in my eyes, in my hair, on my ass is telling me, I have to write something tonight.

Frankly, it wasn't really fun throughout the process.

Today we had an outing together with our lecturer. Well, it was fun at first.

I took a cab to the KTM station with J. The driver was considered an acquaintance, a 66 year old Chinese uncle. I love the way he is.

Ktm was awesome, we had seats and it was there just right after we reached the station. Nice.

We reached and met all the people, great. The Thai restaurant in Mid Valley, cool.

Food was nice and pretty cheap.

It was still fun. Then I had abdominal pain. I guess it must have been the sour Thai food. Well, nothing to be blamed. I don't feel bad about it. I was satisfied with the food, remember?

Then we went to the bowling alley. Soso, everything was fine. Everyone was having fun.

Then I began to be irritated again, well some people are just the way the are, the way that I don't like apparently. What can I do, I can only keep the disgust to myself. Let it be. Let him be. He can always be anyone he wants to be, but not my friend.

Well, I actually wanted to leave since the moment I had finished my food. I didn't want to be involved in any bowling or movie or stuffs, moreover, the abdominal pain. But still I had fun.

Fun is not happiness. (Quoted from A)

We were planning to leave then, or only me, not we. So I just walked on my own, leaving everyone behind. FYI, I did turn back to see if you guys would ask me for directions, but you guys weren't even there. Then I kept walking. There was a train. I just got on the train. How lucky. Second time of the day that I didn't have to wait for KTM.

Then in KL Sentral, the next train was only 5 minutes away, and of course I am happy. So I went back alone, took a taxi alone, reached my hostel safely. Fun, but not necessarily happy.

Now heart to heart.

I don't really care to pay more to please myself. I can take a taxi just to get back without needing to wait for some asses to shake around Mid Valley. (I mean like, you've never been to Mid Valley? It seemed like that though.)

I can take a KTM alone. Almost everyone else in the train was alone, except for couples, so why not.

I don't really like it when everyone was just sitting there, looking at their watches, hearing what other people were talking about, not listening nor enjoying, waiting for time to pass. We had some good chat, but overall, it wasn't enough. I have to admit, we are not close enough to our lecturer, and it's a lost, when he is trying so hard to be with us.

And again, I don't like it when I have to surrender just because of some other people. I don't like people's decision or whatsoever affect my plans and my moods, perhaps my ego.

I admit, I overreacted a bit just now, by walking away alone. But I was definitely 100% happy with my own company and my decision.

Thank you for not fucking me. Don't forget, I didn't fuck you too.