It is currently spring break. One week of freedom, total freedom. I actually bought bus tickets to Madison, a city nearby, a month ago for spring break. It was only 6 bucks so I thought it could be a backup plan if I don't have better plans for the holidays. No, a better holidays never happened. Things changed when I found out that everyone else from the house will be gone for a week. I do not have to go on the trip just to get away from everyone. Madison doesn't have much things to offer anyways. Sweet. So here I am, just sitting here and there. No one cares what I do, what I eat, and how loud I sing. I only talk when I talk to myself and in game communication while playing Dota. Perhaps it's just me getting more anti-social.
Went for karaoke two weeks ago, mainly because it's been so long since the last time. I'm still pretty okay. Still the guy to handle all the unfamiliar lyrics parts. Last week the people asked me to go clubbing, again I refused to go. I don't know but I think I'm just a piece of shit, thinking that I'd rather not go than going with people who I don't really enjoy their company. Yes I have never been clubbing and that's okay with me. Plus I don't wanna just go and hang out with a huge group of Asians, if I really wanna do that I can do that back home. So I'm just sitting here waiting for my American friends to finally ask me along some day.
I also downloaded all my photos from my facebook profile. It is sad to lose all of my photos. Some of them never uploaded but I still want to keep. The quality is not as good, but anything's good enough. Must have downloaded more than 1000 photos in one night. Like I mentioned long ago, I used to be so obsessed with taking pictures and super particular with details that I failed to share the moments with my family. It was kinda obvious from my albums, mostly just scenery and street shots. Perhaps I did take some photos of my family, but I just didn't upload them. Either way I still feel bad. Good thing, before I left home I had a few albums compiled and printed out, so at least they're not gone totally. On the other hand, going through the albums I kinda found a long lost passion of taking photos. I did have some photos that are not bad from the past, and I'm positive I can still do better from now onward.
Honestly I don't know what else is important in my life. I live life almost like an animal. Getting food when I am hungry, trying not to fail my studies so I am given money so that I can get food and so on. Ha. I need something to really change my thinking. As of now I am just looking forward to summer holidays. I'll be home in less than 2 months from now. And then there'll be internship. I kind of think it wouldn't be too bad if I actually find a job in a similar location after I graduate, where I can still live at home and not bothered by anything else.
Confession time, I spend too much time watching Dota. I'm not saying it's useless, but it just takes up a lot of my time. Playing is fine for me, I can play as long as I want. Watching? I don't have a time constraint, I just watch whenever there is any interesting match up, mostly live. So I don't get to pause or anything. Recently I even began watching players streaming live, playing casual dota at home. Hmmmm, that's a bad sign. So I am trying to stop watching altogether, unless there is a match that is super epic. And perhaps just replays of the matches, no more livestream hopefully.
I don't know if I have mentioned this before, but both my elder brothers are in a relationship. My eldest brother and his girlfriend must have been together for almost a year now I think. He even bought her coach bags through me last year. Hmm. My second brother's girlfriend is his classmate. Thus both doctors. Oh, my eldest brother and his girlfriend met at work, kinda in the same field of work I guess. So my second brother and his girlfriend were the best man and the maid of honor for their friends' wedding not too long ago, so all the groomsmen and bridesmaids are doctors to be who just graduated and returned to Malaysia. Yes the couple got married right after they graduated and returned to Malaysia. I can't imagine that. All doctors to be. lol. After that my brother and his girlfriend and all the doctors to be went to Taiwan for a graduation trip sort of. Of course I am happy for both my brothers, and I can't wait for them to get married. It's about time. Time for weddings and time for me to be an uncle maybe.
I like to imagine things like how we would come together in the future, my brothers and their families and our parents sitting together and I'm just sitting alone.
Today is the 14th time I cut my hair since I came here. It's getting easier, but it's kinda always the same style. I've never let someone else cut my hair for me for almost 2 years. I am impressed by myself. Long even before I came here I always have issues with my haircut, there's always this or that which I would be dissatisfied with. Now, I get to decide what to do with my hair, all by myself. That works, perfectly.
Enough bullshit tonight. Yay.
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