It has all come to this. Today, in exactly 9 hours will be my midterm 2 for the class I've learned nothing so far. Yes midterm 2 the week before finals, which is stupid, and I blame the professor for that. Been teaching shit and now you want us to have a midterm now and a final next week, no lectures in between. Whatever man, just don't fail me.

I watched high school musical, all three of the movies. My housemate was playing it on the projector so yeah that's actually the first time i watched any of the movies. Interesting questions came up about education system and basically the whole process of growing up. I have no idea why they are doing it this way, and how can't we be like them that sort of thing. Thus it made me feel even worse realizing that everyone I meet in class and all my professors are actually passionate about what they are doing right now, unlike our people who do what they do just to get jobs etc.

And btw, there's another class which I was super confident before but got beaten down by some of the exams. I actually forgot that there was supposed to be a quiz for this class on Monday, and I went and did what I would do, laughing at their stupid questions and dumb answers after the quiz. And on Wednesday, the professor was telling the whole class about this one student who scored perfectly in it while I was at the washroom. When I came back, people were like who was it who was it, was it Drew? I knew what they were talking about at that moment, I sat down and kept my shit together, the professor was like yeah he's back now, it's Lee. Naturally everyone turned to the back and look at me, the guy who has never said a single word throughout the 2 years plus we had classes together, sorta. And yes I was sitting at the last row again. Well not the first time I was put in this position, but yeah Hi guys, I don't even want to compete against y'all for jobs or whatever, I'm just a nice guy. And the schools should stop sending me graduate studies shit and job application shit. 

On a side note, it's not that I've never really talked, and it's not like I couldn't talk, it's just that I've never wanted to take the trouble to do that. I do not regret it since I don't see how it would affect me, in a good way at least. 

It must be the coffee that kept me up all night, but it doesn't help me to study. I'm wide awake but I do all the random stuffs on earth after I flip through some pages. Life, period. 

I don't even want to be negative anymore, ain't nobody got time for that, have stuffs to do almost everyday. Semester's ending in exactly 7 days and I don't even bother to be negative anymore. Not to say I'm feeling good but I just wanna get it over with. It's a constant struggle. Basically these two weeks I have 3 homework, 2 projects, 1 presentation, 4 quizzes, 2 exams, 3 final exams, 2 long lab reports. Yeah that's about it. 

Have always been in super bad postures lately I assume, neck's been hurting for a week or so. Only when I constantly remind myself to sit up straight and keep my head up that I realize how much I've been looking at the ground and sitting like a piece of shit all the time. But yeah it's still hurtin.