Last night was WEIRD! Well, I slept at 3am, after a freaking nice match which we won.
I guess the 6 hours on the bed had something wrong. I had weird dreams. I dreamed of one of my classmates getting 45 for her grammar quiz, and I died for it, seriously died. Second, I dreamed of two friends overseas coming back. I am certain of the identity of one of them, but I can't recognise the other. Who else is in the States now? Haha. And my book for book review, I dreamed of having another book by the same title and same author but way more thicker and had so many words in it. And the worse part, I have to do the thicker one. LOLZ. Hmm, there was one time when I was still in hostel, I dreamed of me smoking.
My brother is back for his holidays too. He has lots of time it seems compared to me. >< sob.
I enjoyed the session last night with a friend. It has been ages since we chatted for that long. Kind of getting to know things, getting to think of things like people here and there. A perfect guy, at least to me, actually was acting like he had lots of uncertainty. This should be due to the human nature. You should never settle for the less good. He must have thought things were much complicated. Actually everything is simple. First, to have a nice life, you need a rich family. To succeed in life, your parents or relatives must be fucking rich. To see people from international schools in school, I know, money matters. Any institution any course anywhere anything you need cash. People with cash should be happy. Like me, I don't have that much, my family neither, which is why I think everything I do now is like to fulfill my sponsor's requirement. I have no dreams other than keeping grip of the sponsor. Even though I said people who use their family's money will still remain as someone's son and not himself, who cares? As long as you have a nice car, a nice place to study, easy life, and the best part, you can actually fail your exams. Stop complaining okay baby? If you have money, then you will succeed. Second, back to the first element.
I have a pretty good laptop, real good. But I still feel inferior seeing other people carrying theirs. Money matters. The standards never stop. I went to shopping malls and places, you spend accordingly, only accordingly. I even wanted a car. I told my mom I wanted a car weeks ago. Sorry, I don't need a car, just that I want a car.
Well, I have no idea actually which course suits me. No need to think of it anymore actually. I have no choice already. The period to think, which ended on 19th March, was short. Unlike people who have a year or two years. I thought in engineering there are lots of branches, yes there are. But the sponsor gives only some and we had no time to think of it. A week to decide? Eventually, I looked at the point just now, MONEY. I don't know do I really like it or do I just like the money.
Lolz, enough crapping. One more thing, according to my friend, people have lots of perceptions of me. I do hope the people ain't that many and I'm still safe to walk on the pavement and drive on the road. I hope I'm safe. XD
I have not take matters seriously. Individuals are different. Even though some confrontation will stop things, I shall not make one. I know what's best. I know I'm having a pretty good one. Basically, I wish my mindset can go on being Americanised. I wish to be sophisticated. No more puerile and childish nature. I don't care about some domestic things anymore. Actually went to Queensbay Mall yesterday. I was like, well, that's it? You can't get lost in it and it's not fun. I don't care what some people say and think. And some even annoyed me in the process. Lolz. I don't want to be kampung-ish anymore! Not that I hate SP a lot, just let it be a hometown where some others can still tease me.