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It's been a while since I last wrote in English.
The semester ended good. 3 A's and a C. Yes, a C.
Firstly, I have to admit, as time went on, I became really demotivated and didn't have the urge to really study. Well not that I really studied real hard in the beginning, but during finals week, I have been playing computer games and reading novels and watching tv shows. So for every exam day, I studied less than 5 hours, all only on that day the exam was held. If it was held at 8am, I woke up early to study. If it was in the afternoon, I studied from morning to afternoon.
Furthermore, I had no hopes of getting A's for most of my classes, reason: my carry mark can reach B's very easily, but I will need an almost perfect score in the final exam to get A's. In the end, I made it.
The C was from Differential Equations, something I kept on telling myself I couldn't be good at it. I failed myself. It has been tough in maths since college and now, with a not-so-efficient professor, I just let it go. It was the final class of math that I will ever take in my whole life anyway. A pass is way more than enough.

The break has been empty. So empty.
Basically did nothing at all and watch time pass by.
One thing you get for not getting too much friends around where you are, you will be super duper bored.
My laptop has been my life ever since. I wake up, I turned it on. I turned it off, I go to bed.
Good thing I still have friends on the other side of the world, keeping in touch, making my day.
Never really needed to eat, or bathe, or anything.

There's only Alvin and I at home now. Zairul left for his muktamar, a religious activity in Texas, Joseph is with his girlfriend in Pennsylvania.
So the two of us play games from day to night, night to day. Sometimes I wonder, was this really what I wanted?
Going to somewhere without too many Malaysians and living my own life, but in the end had to stay at home and get bored at gaming and everything?
I have to say, nothing will come out the same as your expectations, obviously.

I thought of being here, going around streets alone, getting around, meeting random strangers, but the bus transit card will only be available when the school starts, which means I need to pay to go around the city. And it's too cold to go anywhere with my bike. Just this morning, I saw all those frozen water on the ground, looking like a big mirror, LOL.

I thought of travelling around states.
Number one, travelling by public transport will get you to commercialized places, and commercialized places cost a lot.
Number two, I am not allowed to drive.
Number three, I found out it's pretty dangerous. Yes, it is. I have to say, this is not too different from any other countries in the world, there are nasty people, there are desperate people.
Number four, travelling alone costs a lot, poses more risks. Travelling with some people, well where do I even find people.

Of course this piece of complaints lead me to make things as good as it could be.
So next week, on Christmas Day I am flying to Florida, yes, to the commercialized spots, Miami, Disney World and all. Definitely not what I wanted most, but it's the best I can accommodate.
As for number four, I am trying my best to get people to travel with me.
And I might want to try to get a driver's license when I'm free. Not now though.

Friends came by recently. From days where you don't have to know when to eat, where to go, when to get up, when to speak, when to think, I had to keep myself up to think of what to do, where to go, and crack jokes. So it's like life with zero activity to fast paced days. Going this way was okay, but when they have left, the sudden emptiness that sank in suffocated me. Not the first time though. I've learned, and this is absolutely normal. Perhaps the presence of people and events matters. Oh, perhaps it's just me, she changed a lot. And perhaps it's just me, she is getting way harder to figure out. And I don't know if I am still doing okay with people, sometimes I wonder, after taking away all the lame jokes and sarcasm, what is left in me? I don't know. Or am I so full of myself, as my friends would always say I always come up with tonnes of theories.

It's the time of the year again, new year is coming. The old year wrap up has to be done really early as I will not be around from Christmas to some days in January.