Pre-New York shit

Have you ever noticed how you start talking like people around you? Most of the time yeah. You don't even need long, a few days is enough. I've seen people talking like me and stuffs like that. 

And I guess people around me kinda means the casters or dota players who streams. They talk to the screen, I look at the screen and hear them talk. Sometimes they are like my friends, and it doesn't only happen to me, it happens to most people who watch this much dota. When two Chinese team were in the International's grand final to battle for 10 million dollars, people weren't as excited as they don't know these players. ESL One is tomorrow in Madison Square Garden, NY. I'll be there in 2 days time, and all I can hope for is for some of these people to stay longer in NY and perhaps let me bump into them. The more I think about it, the more I feel that these people are only having it on Thursday and Friday just because all they want is to go to NYC. Like I saw this American player tweeted a picture with the caption: So this is the statue of liberty. lol okay. I won't say that the only reason I'm going to NY is because I want to meet them so badly, but just because I can. 

And yes most of the time I talk like these people, even though I can never be like them (I guess). They are probably a medium-big part of human interaction I have on bad days. 

These days I get depressed so easily, for no reason. Perhaps if you've been high all these time, once you get low you get super low. Or just the coke that I've been taking way too much. Or was it the tasks accumulated due to procrastination. I don't even miss anything sometimes, I don't even want anything sometimes. I have the money to spend but I don't even know what to buy or eat. Don't even feel like travelling no more. 

Oh well I'm here talking shit again and that's bad.