下雪，依然美丽

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Now I'm one of the many junior editors for JoinDota, a website with all the dota information. Basically what I do is come up with news write up, that's it for now and I already have one post up so far, pretty decent for a first post from what I've heard from the seniors. Yes a chance to work with people, and I guess just another thing to keep me busy and motivated. I don't know, I've been finding excuses of how I'm tired of doing this and that, well now it's the chance to prove it. Applied for the position, see if I will do it. One of the many things to be happy for, at least to me.

It's been snowing for days, I mean yeah this early period is pretty okay, not too cold, no snow accumulation, just snowfall, I'll take that all day all year. They say it's another polar vortex, I don't know, that -5 feels good to me.

Classes have been moving so fast, it's almost the end of the semester again. In fact I just completed my final lab for my entire 4 fucking undergraduate years today. Sentimental? Not sentimental. Just a phase. Sometimes I don't even know what I've learned or picked up, but personality must have changed a lot. 3 more weeks of classes and finals week, gogo.

And winter trip again, I honestly do not feel like going anywhere at the moment, even though Chicago is gonna get colder. I kinda feel like I owe it to Chicago that I've never been here all winter, and it's kinda true as I told myself I would want to spend a winter here. Probably that's where the reluctance to leave came from. But we'll see, if I ever want to go anywhere, I have the money and everything I could just go anytime, fuck plans.

Looking back at what I've been doing, or at least what my mind have been up to/stuck in for weeks or months, I kinda feel like perhaps all these happened for a reason. I realize I don't ever wanna be here after I graduate. I don't belong here, I will never belong here. I can try to fit in and belong but why force yourself into doing something when you already have a place you belong?



Peace out.


The news article: http://www.joindota.com/en/news/23015-hyhy-and-meracle-on-sea-and-aui_2000

many of these come up every day, but yeah I'm part of the big picture.