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What’s been going on lately? Yeah right after that last post quite a lot of things have happened. I was shocked to find it was dated August 24 and it has only been less than 3 weeks and I’m writing this now.

First, after a change of mindset I became really comfortable at work, until a friend came to my company for an interview. Somehow someway, well in a lot of ways I have been lied to and yes I have learnt a lesson. They say interviews are really good for the employer to know you and the employee to know about the company and the future. At least that wasn’t the case for mine. I didn’t know she was at my company until I saw her, so we were both shocked to find out. I was really busy that day, and as I talked to her on the following days, I realized that a lot of things are not the same when the interviewer is different.

Perhaps I was pretty naïve, guess that’s lesson learned. I was given a position, lots of promises, and some lies to make them look good, and denied details when I asked them. The first month I was pretty much a driver, driving to wherever they need to go and yes although I get to learn and I do not want to be spoonfed as well, there are times where everyone just left without telling me they’re going to sites and I’m alone at the office with nothing to do. When I’m needed I’m super precious, oh yes, to drive people around. No denying, I got to learn. But each time I wanna ask more, I didn’t get explanation or guidance, not even single word answers. Mostly “just a minute” and “hang on a second”.

Then of course promises of guiding me and letting me become so and so never happened. Not only that I was transferred to another department. This new department I’m at of course they need one more person to cover the tasks, but I was not told in person/phone/email by my promiser. My new dept head came to me and asked me if I knew I was now under his team. I was like okay.

Here I was given work to do. Sometimes it gets kinda tedious, because every time I visit the client, I sorta have to call him/her and register my name and IC on the computer system so I could enter and walk 15 minutes to see him/her. That’s fine, everyone does that too. And I liked the nature of the work, I drive alone, I see clients alone, I do work alone, have lunch alone. There was really nothing much to complain which was why I wrote the previous blog.

Then I found out my friend at the interview was offered a huge amount more than me. When I say huge, IT IS HUGE. At my interview, after I negotiated my pay, I asked them is this reasonable, they told me what I asked for is still above average, Fine. Money didn’t matter that much to me even at this point. Until I found out I actually can’t live with the fact that every morning when I go to work I think of the things that I’ve been lied to, and then these justify me not doing work. Pretty much why I couldn’t do work 100% and I feel bad for that so I’m leaving. Btw, those work didn’t require my 100% anyways and I still finished my tasks.

Before I started working in the new department, I went for an interview in KL. Didn’t think I did very good and wouldn’t expect much. Don’t really know if I would like it yet at that time but I was feeling like a worthless piece of shit being left alone at the office every day so I just did it.

Today, I typed up my resignation letter at the office. I printed it and the printer didn’t start printing, so I was like okay, I’ll do it again later. When I was gonna do it, I saw someone checking some papers at the printer and put them back. So I went and oops, they were actually printed and someone MIGHT or MIGHT NOT know I am resigning. At this point I had to change my plans and tell my manager I’m resigning immediately. (I planned to do it 7 hours later) So anyways, I thought she did see my letter because the whole atmosphere was kinda weird, maybe just me and my mind, but people didn’t seem to talk to me or smile at me anymore. I left the office to go to work.

When I came back, more and more people were ignoring me, at least I felt it to be so. And then my General Manager called my desk and asked me to talk to him. I’m like sure, why the hell not. If you can offer my friend that much more I’ll see what you gotta say now. I think he’s the only person who knows the HUGE AMOUNT ISSUE.

Pingpongsingsong, asked me is it true that I wanna leave, why did I wanna leave, and then he said he didn’t want me to leave because I didn’t like my duties, because he thinks I liked the place and people. I never told anyone any of the real issue. So I said I didn’t like the industry, and guess what? I was offered to lead a new project, in charge of a new venture, which is still on paper currently, but will soon be realized. WOW. (If I say yes and stay for a few more months, I would have covered their mess at my current department and when it is time for this project to come true, it will never be done. I’ll either have to leave, or continue with my job or whatever, they won’t need me no more) At this meeting, my phone rang, it was an unknown number. I shut it. At the end I told him I will consider it.

I went out, called the number, got offered the job I interviewed for. Going to be based in China, kinda nervous about it, also kinda excited. There was a kind of feeling that I have never felt in months, if not years.

And honestly, these people ignoring me thinking I’m making their work harder or I was never part of them or whatever, I wish them all the best. The company is not yours, don’t have to get so protective. I may have been lazy at work or unmotivated most of the time, I believe I have good enough reasons.

Even to this day I am still learning a lot each day at work. My job scope does not require a really strong technical background and I had a really good technician working with me, more like a friend sometimes. We even share the same last four IC numbers and days were good. And also my current manager might not be the best manager, but he’s really kind and responsible. I feel bad for leaving him in this mess, but I’m making more mess if I stay longer. He is truly a nice person.

Guess this is what they call the real world. My experience could have been a lot worse. At least I still have my nice photos to the right. Ahhhh