I don't know what I'm doing. Past two month I was working at a new company where it involved a lot of travel, and in the midst of not knowing what to do and how to do and being afraid of failing, some kind of alert just came out of nowhere.

On all seriousness though, I have not hated a single day as part of this team, but I also do know deep down inside I have not lived up to expectations. I can of course bring out a hundred excuses and that might help me get by but that's just not it.

A change is needed it seems, either the environment or myself. For now I have decided that it would not be ideal to change the surroundings again. It's never easy but what is?


I have no idea what I want to do honestly. Is it possible for a free spirit to still live in the corporate world though? Not a single clue.