Balance is a strong word

Can't believe it's been so long. August 2016.

There's been ups and downs after my last post, not gonna write about all the things that happened.
Personally I don't think life's supposed to be great all the time, but some people can just make every day worth living for. I'm not those people.

Work for me has been okay-ish. Better than average. I'd say it's a 7 out of 10.
But on shit days, shit just hits real hard.

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Random fact: All my life, I have been hit by bird poop twice while walking.
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Today something really came up in my mind, and I decided I needed to give it some thoughts, and here I am.
If I am not bonded by the government, what would I be doing and where would I be?
I'm not gonna lie, exactly a year ago, I thought I wanted to work in an MNC, with opportunity to travel. I have these now, but I do not know. I'm not saying I'm not happy, I'm just indifferent.

I saw an article about a gap year. It doesn't have to be a year, it doesn't have to be working holiday or vacation or anything. You can still be working as whatever you like, just not something people would call a career. And then you decide where you go from there, go back to whatever profession, or continue doing that.
But then again, gotta have balls to do that. And also be free of bond. So the realistic choice and obvious choice would be to continue doing whatever I'm doing for the next 6 years. I can't be running from the government and feel like a criminal like some of my friends.

How I wish there is a Balance in all these. (Yes I know if you can't change the surrounding change yourself, but what if no change is required to stay alive)

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I was an Uber driver for a few weekends. It was great, I got to meet people from around the world, listen to their stories more than telling my stories. But when people heard I'm an engineer who studied in the US, they'd wonder why am I driving Uber. Well I dont have many people to socialize with during weekends and not many other things to do, so that was quite a good BALANCE. Money, meeting people, talking, learning from their stories.
But I am now taking a break, with the current situation of cabs being dissatisfied and angry. Not to mention Pokemon Go, where there might be people playing while driving, or crossing the road and stuffs. I don't wanna get in another car accident, at least not while it's not a mandatory driving since I don't need the money to live.
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Pokemon Go, ha. I had fun playing it no kidding. I wasn't really looking forward to it before it came, but it's a well thought concept, great gameplay and super addictive. So why did I stop? It did take up quite a lot of my time, and I ran out of Pokeballs. I don't have time to walk to pokestops since I drive mostly, and I don't think it's safe to walk around with my phone in my hand. So yeah, that's my brief affair with Pokemon Go. I also thought catching them all means catching them all, not catching the same pokemon for like 100 or 200 times to evolve a pokemon. That makes no sense to me still.

Whenever people say they are starting to explore places when they play this game, I don't really agree though. If all you do is go out and look at your screen, go to the place of interest to spin some thing, and then look at nearby pokemons and keep walking, I know, you've been there, but have you done that? Don't use that as a justification, just say you like the game.
Still I'm not hating, it's just not for me. At least I gave it a go before I commented.

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Been running quite a lot lately, most of the time more than 5k, for someone who's only done 5k after 23 years of living, I'd say that's quite okay for myself.
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To be honest, there was this girl that appeared and sort of created ripples in a calm water, me. Not like we shared anything but there was just something. Like I'd really like to just sit next to her, and maybe talk. That's it. It's not even that she's unattainable, sometimes I just feel like with so much instability in myself and my road ahead, I don't even know if I should do anything about it. If I do nothing, nothing will ever happen, we might not even meet ever again. The calm water will go back to being a calm water, and is totally fine being calm.

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If nothing goes wrong, I will be going to the US for one week of training, then a week of travelling. And I still have like 13 or 14 days of annual leave left for this year. If I do not plan to carry them to next year, I might just go on a 2 or 3 week vacation in December. We'll see.
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