I didn't realise things until last night.
We had lots of fun playing counter strike until near midnight. I was the one who lost connection always and after that I went back.
The negatives: First I came to my room and noticed only 2 people are staying this weekend. Second I found an asshole internet connection. Third I had no one to turn to. Fourth I had nothing to do. Fifth I had a darn Dota game after that. And last and the most pain-inflicting one. I didn't know why, now the 20th, Friday, and I was not used to nights like this. Without any outings, without anyone to talk to on the phone, without any luxurious things to eat. Maybe I have become a terrible guy. I spend a lot, I play a lot, mill around a lot.
Well, anyway I'm planning to do Ethics today and tomorrow will be a great one. Of course, and it happens to be One Utama.
I don't see the main idea now. I'm behaving like a jerk. People see me as the total opposite of ambitious, I talk crap a lot, I don't like to study, I play, I spend, and for the two tests so far, I have been the first guy to leave the hall. People here are supposed to be working freaking hard and not like me. I don't know about people who go to the States paid by themselves, do they have dreams? Do they work hard? Am I like them except that I can't afford it myself? XD
Are we well prepared here? Is INTEC really the best according to our lecturer? I do believe part of it, well, doesn't matter. Even the preparation ain't good enough, remember that the world always has a space for underdogs. Perhaps I'm the underdog. If INTEC is THAT great, then other people will be.